"I survived the world for 23 fuckin' years and I don't plan to give the fuck up too soon."
This was my motto on the 20th of August in the year 2008. That was 3 days ago. One more birthday, one more candle on the cake, one more chapter in the book of life. One less year to live, one less tension, one less part of life to look forward to.
Birthdays. One more reason for people to ask you your age. One more reason for them to ask you to take them out for a treat. One more reason for you to get gifts from them. One more reason to have cake. One more reason to "have your way for a day". As if!
I never really liked my birthday. I never like celebrating it. Why can't I just leave it as a day for myself? When all I want to do is be normal for a change? Let it be a day that starts and ends like every other day. It's just a milestone. All it tells you that you've survived another year and thus are one year closer to finally not surviving it. Anyway, for all those who want to know, this is how I spent my birthday:
Evening of 19th August: On my way back from work, I grabbed a cake from the local grocery store, for my colleagues. Then I went and got a take-out from Salad King (Thai food) and had dinner with my cousins. Got home and went straight to sleep. I didn't wanna talk to anyone. I wasn't planning on celebrating my birthday.
Midnight of 19th August: Arya calls up to wish. I'm sleeping on the couch, I wake up and answer the fone. My flatmates are making a lotta noise. Whatever happened to "basic decency to keep quiet when someone's on the fone"? Anyway, then they force me to cut the cake they've got for me. Get a call from parents. Call them back. Cut the cake. Flatmates gift me a Sony Cybershot camera and a set of Calvin Klein perfume and after-shave. I'm not a big cosmetics person. I don't think I'm using that too soon. But the camera is something I wanted for a long time. I thank them for that. Then we all pose for a pic. We go to sleep at around 2am.
6am on 20th August: I wake up. I get ready. I make tea for my flatmate. I leave for work.
Morning of 20th August: Work, work, work. Colleagues love the cake. Had to be. My choice. I always believe in getting the best. After all, I earn money to spend it lavishly on others. Get lotta fone calls.
Afternoon of 20th August: Met up didi for lunch. Had fish and chips at the li'l place near my office. The one my manager considers the 2nd best in the GTA. Didi loves it. I'm happy. Get back to office and then more and more work. Work's getting hectic now. It makes me feel good though. Keeps my mind off other things.
Evening of 20th August: I walk home. 12-13 kms, 2.5 hours. All along the lakeshore. It feels good. iPod in my ears, lake by my side, sun in the sky. This is the best part of my day. Smile across my face. I should do this more often. Maybe every Friday evening. Reach home, take flatmates out for dinner as they say they'll be all formal when we go out for dinner with my cousins. I'm sick and tired of Wheat Sheaf and Montana's. This time we try out Brazen Head, a pub near our place. Turns out to be a great choice. We play cards. I don't lose any game this time. Birthday Luck? I don't think so. We come back home and go to sleep.
Evening of 22nd August: Part 2 of celebrations. Taking cousins and flatmates out for dinner. Went to an Italian restaurant called Il Furnello on the Harbourfront. Next to the water. Nice place. Kinda classy. We were sitting in the back patio. It was nice. Went for Baskin Robbins after that. Walked home from there. Cousins gifted a $100 gift certificate for BestBuy (an electronics store). Thinking what to buy from there. Anyway, after coming home, went to sleep. End of birthday celebrations.
That's pretty much all that happened. Not that it interests many people. But just for the sake of it, I put it up here. After all, you needed a blog post, didn't you? So yea, Happy Birth-fuckin'-day to me! Bullshit!
:-)
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Time Flies
Well, it seems that it's been a looooooooong time since my last post.
*checks the date of the last post*
Hmmm, March 13th, 2008. That makes today exactly 4 months 20 days or 142 days since my last posted. Time does fly, eh? There was the time when I was posting 2-3 times a day. Well, maybe that's what happens when you're part of the Rat Race. The only time you get, you try to spend it in relaxing, and I guess I never reached the "Blogging level" of my boredom. :-)
Anyway, today is August 2nd, 2008. Yesterday was my grandpa's birthday. He would have been 85 years old yesterday. Too bad he passed away 6 years ago. Wow! it's been 6 years, eh? I still remember the day. I saw 2 of my mentors for the last time ever that day. 6 years is a long time indeed. So much has changed in the last 6 years. What was I doing on this day 6 years ago? I don't even remember. But yes, I do remember what I was doing on this day 5 years ago. August 2, 2002 was the day I reached my college. I stayed at a small hotel in Warangal, India. Then I went to college. I met my seniors, I was ragged for the first time. So many things change, so much happens in 5-6 years. I was 17 then. I will be 23 now. I left home then, I left my home country now. I met new people, I made new friends, I had fun. Oh well, I guess, that's changed a bit. But then, there are many things that haven't changed. And I'm glad they haven't.
Maybe I should note down things that have changed, right? (Yes, I'm an engineer. Lists DO help!) So yea, here's my list:
Things that have changedin the last 5-6 years:
1. I'm an engineer
2. I'm not in India anymore.
3. I got more close friends than I ever had.
4. I got my own iPod!! :D
5. I can spend money without thinking how much I'm spending. After all, it's MY money now!
6. I'm fatter, balder and uglier than before. :-)
7. I've done one of the things I had vowed not to do: I've smoked.
8. I've changed my musical taste to more soothing music like Pink Floyd and Radiohead and sometimes even dance music.
9. I've learnt that I can cook pretty tasty food :D
10. I've fallen in and out of love more than once, but still hated each of them after that.
11. I've lost my temper reeeeeally bad once. (I take pride in the fact that I can control my temper) But I still regret it. But the bright side is that it was only once :-)
12. I've started sleeping less. I sleep only 5-6 hours a day now.
13. I've improved my people skills a lot. I'm a bit of an extrovert now :-)
14. I've gone into the depths of music and explored the darkest side I could, and still survived :-)
15. I've had a near-death experience.
16. I've crashed 3 cars.
*checks the date of the last post*
Hmmm, March 13th, 2008. That makes today exactly 4 months 20 days or 142 days since my last posted. Time does fly, eh? There was the time when I was posting 2-3 times a day. Well, maybe that's what happens when you're part of the Rat Race. The only time you get, you try to spend it in relaxing, and I guess I never reached the "Blogging level" of my boredom. :-)
Anyway, today is August 2nd, 2008. Yesterday was my grandpa's birthday. He would have been 85 years old yesterday. Too bad he passed away 6 years ago. Wow! it's been 6 years, eh? I still remember the day. I saw 2 of my mentors for the last time ever that day. 6 years is a long time indeed. So much has changed in the last 6 years. What was I doing on this day 6 years ago? I don't even remember. But yes, I do remember what I was doing on this day 5 years ago. August 2, 2002 was the day I reached my college. I stayed at a small hotel in Warangal, India. Then I went to college. I met my seniors, I was ragged for the first time. So many things change, so much happens in 5-6 years. I was 17 then. I will be 23 now. I left home then, I left my home country now. I met new people, I made new friends, I had fun. Oh well, I guess, that's changed a bit. But then, there are many things that haven't changed. And I'm glad they haven't.
Maybe I should note down things that have changed, right? (Yes, I'm an engineer. Lists DO help!) So yea, here's my list:
Things that have changedin the last 5-6 years:
1. I'm an engineer
2. I'm not in India anymore.
3. I got more close friends than I ever had.
4. I got my own iPod!! :D
5. I can spend money without thinking how much I'm spending. After all, it's MY money now!
6. I'm fatter, balder and uglier than before. :-)
7. I've done one of the things I had vowed not to do: I've smoked.
8. I've changed my musical taste to more soothing music like Pink Floyd and Radiohead and sometimes even dance music.
9. I've learnt that I can cook pretty tasty food :D
10. I've fallen in and out of love more than once, but still hated each of them after that.
11. I've lost my temper reeeeeally bad once. (I take pride in the fact that I can control my temper) But I still regret it. But the bright side is that it was only once :-)
12. I've started sleeping less. I sleep only 5-6 hours a day now.
13. I've improved my people skills a lot. I'm a bit of an extrovert now :-)
14. I've gone into the depths of music and explored the darkest side I could, and still survived :-)
15. I've had a near-death experience.
16. I've crashed 3 cars.
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